FOR YOU.

A spoken word.

You tell me the truth

And more than ever I understand why they say the truth is better left unsaid

Better left unheard.

Because I know you've been feeling this way,

That was no secret

But since we're being honest

I have a secret too

It's about YOU.

I saw, I witnessed, I was there

I know you hid behind your hair, slouched your back, shied away

Went in your room, locked the door

I saw you, you see

With the tears down your cheek

I knew the pain in your eyes; they matched mine

A pair, a matching set I guess

Everyone always said we looked alike.

The truth is I knew that you hid behind the depths of sleep

That's how you faced your demons

That's how they were harder to see.

You know what I thought? My honest opinion?

I thought it'd get better

That you would be like me.

SURPRESS. REGRET. But never talk.

Because who wants to talk about it? Not me. That's for sure.

Did I want to talk about how sometimes I just wanted to lay in bed-

Forever.

No movement. No faces to see, no one to recognize me.

Why would I want to talk about me?

How I feel like half a person

Like there's an empty space needed to be filled

But what do I fill it with?

No. Because I didn't want anyone to be concerned

To burden another person with my complaints, my words.

Maybe I thought you would shove it all down like a pill and swallow.

Maybe I thought it would be the things we kept til' we passed

That we could talk about the weather, what we saw on the news, sports perhaps?

But never that.

We could stare blankly in the face of life

Never truly feeling but sucumming to the darkness

The numbness

When you lay it all in front of me

I don't know what to do

It's like the sheet over my eyes has been pulled

Tearing me away from my dream state and the walls it took me 17 years to build.

Pulling me towards reality.

Towards the reality of us.

What do I do?

I want to fix everything, you see. I want to be the glue

Holding things together, you before me.

YOU.

I know you do the same.

Get trampled on, get watered down for someoneelse's sake

But now it's time for me to lift you up

The load you've been carrying has been enough

Sorry I couldn't be the one to piece you back together

Or catch you when you fell from your tower

Maybe I'm not the one who saves the day this time

No.

In this story, in the story of our lives

I learned only we can save ourselves

And even though you're wounded

And even though you've got battle scars

You'll make it out and i'll be there

And it will make us stronger

I look up to you, to see what you will do

And when you emerge from the fog, from the dust, from the smoke

From whatever clouds your judgement

or causes your eyes to water

You'll see that the journey

Is better than the end.

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